"Human nature often compels us to look at others in our lives and cry " But you don't care! I can only love you if you love me!"
Our human nature tends to withhold and wait to give until we've reaped the benefits of our emotional time and trouble.
But how contrary human nature is to true love! When we long for someone to change, sometimes the best step to take is the first step-acting not on the way things are but on the way we wish a relationship to be.
Choosing to have faith in a relationship is always a risk. But more often than not, when we're willing to take the first step, changes happen- in us and in those we long to be close to"
-Adapted from "Love is a Verb" by Dr. Gary Chapman
Monday, September 28, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Come With Me My Friends
Lately, I've been immersing myself in the realm of self-improvement in a whole lot of areas such as relationships, body language, dating, people-relations, psychology... just to name a few. Everyone close to me knows that I love books and initially I was into fiction but then i realized that i felt very unfulfilled as I desperately yearned to come across a book which could actually leave a delible impact on my life and I did not attain that with fiction. It was only till I started reading self-improvement books did i stumble upon what I so desperately craved.
After reading various books on different aspects of self-improvement, I managed to obtain a great deal of vital knowledge which transformed my way of thinking and mannerisms. It revolutionized my way of life as well in more ways than one. This got me thinking. If I could benefit such a great deal from this wealth of knowledge, so could hordes of people if they had the opportunity to obtain it, learn it and integrate it into their way of life. With the aid of my cousin, Saiful Rizal, who is a success coach, I made a decision to share these various troves of knowledge through my own website, which will be set up later in the year. In the meantime, i'll be posting info-bites on my blog in upcoming posts.
Be prepared to go on an amazing journey of self-metamorphosis my friends. I assure you that these valuable knowledge will help revolutionize your relationships and ultimately lead you to be the person you've always envisioned yourself to be.
Till next time my friends...
After reading various books on different aspects of self-improvement, I managed to obtain a great deal of vital knowledge which transformed my way of thinking and mannerisms. It revolutionized my way of life as well in more ways than one. This got me thinking. If I could benefit such a great deal from this wealth of knowledge, so could hordes of people if they had the opportunity to obtain it, learn it and integrate it into their way of life. With the aid of my cousin, Saiful Rizal, who is a success coach, I made a decision to share these various troves of knowledge through my own website, which will be set up later in the year. In the meantime, i'll be posting info-bites on my blog in upcoming posts.
Be prepared to go on an amazing journey of self-metamorphosis my friends. I assure you that these valuable knowledge will help revolutionize your relationships and ultimately lead you to be the person you've always envisioned yourself to be.
Till next time my friends...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Revelations
Watched District 9 today with my cuz. Movie was alrite i guess if you keep an open mind. Seemed pretty crappy at the start but it got better towards the end. haha.
Today was life-changing. I realised that i had no purpose in life at the moment. I'm like a ghost, wandering aimlessly down the streets. I told all of this to my cousin just now, about how i want to have a purpose in my life right now but i don't know what it is and how to work towards it. He sat me down and asked me a series of questions and gathered valuable information from me. Through the info that he got from me, he helped me draw up a plan for my life at the moment. A plan which could potentially change my life. I feel amazing. I feel thankful. Most of all, I feel empowered.
There are few moments where people can point to and say, " That's when it happened. That's when my life changed". This is that moment.
Today was life-changing. I realised that i had no purpose in life at the moment. I'm like a ghost, wandering aimlessly down the streets. I told all of this to my cousin just now, about how i want to have a purpose in my life right now but i don't know what it is and how to work towards it. He sat me down and asked me a series of questions and gathered valuable information from me. Through the info that he got from me, he helped me draw up a plan for my life at the moment. A plan which could potentially change my life. I feel amazing. I feel thankful. Most of all, I feel empowered.
There are few moments where people can point to and say, " That's when it happened. That's when my life changed". This is that moment.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Comedies are remedies to life's tragedies

Met up with hirman and zul just now for dinner. Was really good to catch up with those guys. My oldest friends. Charles joined us for dinner too coz i invited him. haha. He just sat there and laughed at our jokes. Haha. These are the people which make my life so much more bearable. My friends are really the most important people in my life. It gives me comfort to know that there are still people who i can depend on in times of need. Thanks so much guys.
People always leave...
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Move Along
Hello again. Nth much to blog about coz most of my time is spent working. The whole two days work-two days off deal is really great...if you have people to spend the off days with. It sucks to have off days during the weekdays coz most of my friends are in camp.
Life in station so far has been pretty awesome. The experience of saving lives is unrivaled by any other vocations. haha. Handled my first Road Traffic accident the other day. Female pillion rider was flung off onto the sidewalk after a collision with a taxi. Managed to convey her to the hospital swiftly and she should be alrite. Another life saved thanks to Civil Defence. hahaha.
As i have mentioned in one of my earlier posts, "Attraction is not a choice". It's that sense of gravitiation towards a person. Though orbiting around that person can leave one bruised and battered at times, one cannot fight it. However, right now, I am desperately fighting free myself from this turbulent ride but the escape hatch simply won't budge. There's only so much bruising a person can handle.
It's over. Move Along
Chris Daughtry's cover of Poker Face
Life in station so far has been pretty awesome. The experience of saving lives is unrivaled by any other vocations. haha. Handled my first Road Traffic accident the other day. Female pillion rider was flung off onto the sidewalk after a collision with a taxi. Managed to convey her to the hospital swiftly and she should be alrite. Another life saved thanks to Civil Defence. hahaha.
As i have mentioned in one of my earlier posts, "Attraction is not a choice". It's that sense of gravitiation towards a person. Though orbiting around that person can leave one bruised and battered at times, one cannot fight it. However, right now, I am desperately fighting free myself from this turbulent ride but the escape hatch simply won't budge. There's only so much bruising a person can handle.
It's over. Move Along
Chris Daughtry's cover of Poker Face
Friday, July 17, 2009
Keep you much longer...
Tried my hardest
Sorry if i hurt you in any way...
Akon-Keep you much longer
Lyrics | Akon lyrics - Keep You Much Longer lyrics
As long as i've got eyes, i'll have the sight for you
As long as i'm alive, baby i'd die for you
Sorry if i hurt you in any way...
Akon-Keep you much longer
Lyrics | Akon lyrics - Keep You Much Longer lyrics
As long as i've got eyes, i'll have the sight for you
As long as i'm alive, baby i'd die for you
Sunday, July 12, 2009
To be the better man...
Wassssssssup! Hope all you guys have been awesome man. haha. Have free time to kill so decided to blog. lol.
Today marks my fourth day as a station medic. The hours are pretty grueling; 13-hour day shift(8am to 9pm) and 11-hour night shift(9pm to 8am). It really is an amazing experience and i finally know how busy the ambulance service is in singapore and how fucked up people can get. It seems that having a headache is considered an emergency these days. Despite this, i still feel that i've learnt alot so far. The feeling derived from saving people is truly one-of-a-kind. The best part is im working 2 days, and the next 2 days im off! woots! Only drawback is some of my weekends are burnt.
Im really glad that this job occupies most of my time. Leaves little time to ponder about my life. hahaha.
Repulsed at the thought of the numbness slowly fading away...
Wait for You- Elliot Yamin
Today marks my fourth day as a station medic. The hours are pretty grueling; 13-hour day shift(8am to 9pm) and 11-hour night shift(9pm to 8am). It really is an amazing experience and i finally know how busy the ambulance service is in singapore and how fucked up people can get. It seems that having a headache is considered an emergency these days. Despite this, i still feel that i've learnt alot so far. The feeling derived from saving people is truly one-of-a-kind. The best part is im working 2 days, and the next 2 days im off! woots! Only drawback is some of my weekends are burnt.
Im really glad that this job occupies most of my time. Leaves little time to ponder about my life. hahaha.
Repulsed at the thought of the numbness slowly fading away...
Wait for You- Elliot Yamin
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Betrayal
Friendship. It's one of the most important aspects of life. Having a group of people who understand you, are there for you and love you for who you are. The beauty of friendship is that it is a symbiotic relationship whereby two parties depend on each other for encouragement, understanding and unwavering loyalty. My friends mean the world to me. They are the most important people in my life, besides my family of coz. I've friends who i've known since secondary school and who i'm still close to up to this day.
I have a very great distinction between right and wrong and one of my strongest beliefs is that i would never go against my extremely good friends' wishes if i had a choice. Its amazing how people can change. You think you've known them for the most part of your life and you've got them figured out, and then, they turn around and do something you'd never have expected them to be capable of. Pretending to be there for you when in actual fact, they're just waiting for you to give up. Best friend indeed. Fuck you.
It's people like this that make me doubt the goodness in people. Made me realise that you can never truly know someone till they've shown you their true colours. But as my good friend Charles once told me, "Have faith Fazil".
Have faith.
Fuck this life
I have a very great distinction between right and wrong and one of my strongest beliefs is that i would never go against my extremely good friends' wishes if i had a choice. Its amazing how people can change. You think you've known them for the most part of your life and you've got them figured out, and then, they turn around and do something you'd never have expected them to be capable of. Pretending to be there for you when in actual fact, they're just waiting for you to give up. Best friend indeed. Fuck you.
It's people like this that make me doubt the goodness in people. Made me realise that you can never truly know someone till they've shown you their true colours. But as my good friend Charles once told me, "Have faith Fazil".
Have faith.
Fuck this life
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Change is coming
Change. It's an inevitable aspect of life. Sometimes its for the better, and at times, its for the worse. The past month has been wrought with change for me. New phase of my NS life and also, a new phase of my life. It was depressing for the past few weeks till yesterday. Had a good chat and i guess i realized that as much as you want to be in someone else's life, it's up to the person to let you in. You can bang on the door as much as you want but it's still up to the person, whether to let you through. I'll be waiting outside that door, waiting for it to open again. But, in the meantime, i'll be going about my own life, taking an occasional peek through the window. One thing i learnt: sometimes, people do the most hurtful things to the ones they love, not coz they want to, but because they have to.
Linkin Park-New Divide
Lyrics | Linkin Park lyrics - New Divide lyrics
Linkin Park-New Divide
Lyrics | Linkin Park lyrics - New Divide lyrics
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Dear God,
Lyrics | Avenged Sevenfold lyrics - Dear God lyrics
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Surfacing
Amacam! haha. Freaking long time man! haha. Been really damn lazy to blog since i enlisted coz i dont really have much to blog about besides ns life and im sure you guys aren't interested in that shit. Oh well, since i've mustered the will to blog, here goes.
As you all know, i got posted to CD and i went through the 7 weeks of Basic Rescue Training( BRT, not BMT). Struggled at first coz i didnt really train physically for my enlistment. haha. But as the weeks rolled by, i could see that i became fitter and i could cope with the hundreds of pumping the fucking instructors made us do everyday. haha. So then i POP-ed( without an actual parade. CD damn fucking budget. ) and got posted to MEDIC. Kind of expected that coz im from JC. So yeap, i', going through the 6-week course now. Finally gotten over my fear of needles coz we get injected every friday and also coz we had to do IV on each other. Got to feel how warm blood is when it flowed all over my arm. haha. 3 weeks to go then i'll be posted to fire station, hopefully one near my house, and attached to ambulance. that means i'll be attending to road traffic accidents, suicide cases and all that shit. Gonna be pretty traumatising. Lol.
The best part about being a medic is that im on office hours throughout the duration of the course! the downside is that i have to report at 730am each day so that means i have to wake up at like 5 everyday. haha. However, once i get posted out, i'll be working two days, then two days off, and so on and so forth. Good life.
On the university aspect, i got accepted into NUS. What a relief. But i'm gonna try applying for schaolarships next year coz i really wanna go overseas. Get some perspective and of coz, have a ball of a time overseas. haha. If i dont get it, i'll still have NUS to fall back on. Cross your fingers aite? lol.
That's it for now guys. Take care of yourselves. Love you all. Peace.
Lifehouse-Blind
Lyrics | Lifehouse lyrics - Blind lyrics
As you all know, i got posted to CD and i went through the 7 weeks of Basic Rescue Training( BRT, not BMT). Struggled at first coz i didnt really train physically for my enlistment. haha. But as the weeks rolled by, i could see that i became fitter and i could cope with the hundreds of pumping the fucking instructors made us do everyday. haha. So then i POP-ed( without an actual parade. CD damn fucking budget. ) and got posted to MEDIC. Kind of expected that coz im from JC. So yeap, i', going through the 6-week course now. Finally gotten over my fear of needles coz we get injected every friday and also coz we had to do IV on each other. Got to feel how warm blood is when it flowed all over my arm. haha. 3 weeks to go then i'll be posted to fire station, hopefully one near my house, and attached to ambulance. that means i'll be attending to road traffic accidents, suicide cases and all that shit. Gonna be pretty traumatising. Lol.
The best part about being a medic is that im on office hours throughout the duration of the course! the downside is that i have to report at 730am each day so that means i have to wake up at like 5 everyday. haha. However, once i get posted out, i'll be working two days, then two days off, and so on and so forth. Good life.
On the university aspect, i got accepted into NUS. What a relief. But i'm gonna try applying for schaolarships next year coz i really wanna go overseas. Get some perspective and of coz, have a ball of a time overseas. haha. If i dont get it, i'll still have NUS to fall back on. Cross your fingers aite? lol.
That's it for now guys. Take care of yourselves. Love you all. Peace.
Lifehouse-Blind
Lyrics | Lifehouse lyrics - Blind lyrics
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Beautiful
Wassup to all you peeps out there!! Been a fucking long time man! hahahaha. Oh well, the hiatus was largely due to my own laziness. Yea so updates! =)
A level Results
Was fucking shocked when i got called in the morning. Last thing i expected. Still dont know how the fuck i did it. Anyways, hope all you peeps get into the universities and courses that you want! =)
Work
Yeap, i finally managed to find a job working at the airport as i have mentioned before. This time in charge of a game booth where passengers stand a chance to win cash vouchers. It was really interesting coz i got to meet loads of people and of coz, hot chicks! ( of different nationalities *wink*) Also had the opportunity to work the midnight shift which starts from 11pm to 730am. Wtf? yeap, tell me about it. haha. Faiz and Zul came to accompany me on one of those shifts. I suggested it jokingly to them but didnt really think that they'd actually come. haha. Great friends man. Oh ya, meifong, chuan yue and charles also came to the airport on one of my midnight shifts. They had just finished clubbing so they were pretty exhausted. hahahaha. Anyways, my last day of work was last tue so i'm officially unemployed again. Still waiting to collect my pay of 600 bucks for 12 days work. Quite good actually. hahaha.
Chill-ing
Have been playing soccer regularly for the past few months and it was really damn fun lah. hahaha. The problem is i dont seem to be getting any slimmer, worse, im actually getting fatter! i'm sure several people can vouch for this. hahahaha. Caught several movies too. Watched Push with meifong, The Watchmen with zul and poon and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with meifong and reza. Watchmen was freaking draggy and we watched the 930pm show so it ended at like 12 plus. The only scenes that i liked were of Rorshach( that's how it's spelt i think) who's freaking cool lah. hahahaha.
Spent many afternoons over at Zul's house playing Fifa and Guitar Hero World Tour. haha. Awesomeness.
Shows to Watch
For all of you people who have not watched How I Met Your Mother, crawl out from under your fucking rocks and go watch it! Its reallly funny and i haven't laughed this hard consistently since i started watching Friends. So for all you peeps who loved Friends, catch How I Met Your mother. Just go to Sidereel.com and watch to your heart's content. It is going to be legend... wait for it... DARRYYY!
DoomsDay
Yes, the day is drawing ever closer. I'm going to fucking enlist this fucking TUESDAY. I have never, and i mean never, cut botak in my life so i dont know how the fuck i'm going to look like botak. hahaha. Confirm look like fuck. Oh well, at least I'll know one guy in Civil Defence who's enlisting on the same day and that person is Zul! What are the odds bro? If we all platoon mates, power pack lah. hahaha. Haven't done any physical prep for my enlistment so i think im going to get my ass whooped in there. Hope i dont come out a smoker or worse, a MAT( yeap that's how its spelt you chinese peeps. It's not spelt MUD) Most of friends have changed after going in so i know i will too. Just hope its for the better.
Oh ya, and i'll have to switch back to my old phone coz i dont want to risk my iPhone getting stolen my some mat( yes i'm talking about you zul). Haha. Thank god CD allows camera phones. lol. The week that i'm enlisting is Good Friday week so i'll only be in camp for 3 days! hahaha.
That's all peeps. This is, i think, going to be my last post before i enlist coz i dont think i'll be able to muster the patience to blog. haha. Hope all you peeps will stay healthy, be happy and achieve what you want in life. Peace out homies.
Lady Gaga- Poker Face
Akon-Beautiful
A level Results
Was fucking shocked when i got called in the morning. Last thing i expected. Still dont know how the fuck i did it. Anyways, hope all you peeps get into the universities and courses that you want! =)
Work
Yeap, i finally managed to find a job working at the airport as i have mentioned before. This time in charge of a game booth where passengers stand a chance to win cash vouchers. It was really interesting coz i got to meet loads of people and of coz, hot chicks! ( of different nationalities *wink*) Also had the opportunity to work the midnight shift which starts from 11pm to 730am. Wtf? yeap, tell me about it. haha. Faiz and Zul came to accompany me on one of those shifts. I suggested it jokingly to them but didnt really think that they'd actually come. haha. Great friends man. Oh ya, meifong, chuan yue and charles also came to the airport on one of my midnight shifts. They had just finished clubbing so they were pretty exhausted. hahahaha. Anyways, my last day of work was last tue so i'm officially unemployed again. Still waiting to collect my pay of 600 bucks for 12 days work. Quite good actually. hahaha.
Chill-ing
Have been playing soccer regularly for the past few months and it was really damn fun lah. hahaha. The problem is i dont seem to be getting any slimmer, worse, im actually getting fatter! i'm sure several people can vouch for this. hahahaha. Caught several movies too. Watched Push with meifong, The Watchmen with zul and poon and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with meifong and reza. Watchmen was freaking draggy and we watched the 930pm show so it ended at like 12 plus. The only scenes that i liked were of Rorshach( that's how it's spelt i think) who's freaking cool lah. hahahaha.
Spent many afternoons over at Zul's house playing Fifa and Guitar Hero World Tour. haha. Awesomeness.
Shows to Watch
For all of you people who have not watched How I Met Your Mother, crawl out from under your fucking rocks and go watch it! Its reallly funny and i haven't laughed this hard consistently since i started watching Friends. So for all you peeps who loved Friends, catch How I Met Your mother. Just go to Sidereel.com and watch to your heart's content. It is going to be legend... wait for it... DARRYYY!
DoomsDay
Yes, the day is drawing ever closer. I'm going to fucking enlist this fucking TUESDAY. I have never, and i mean never, cut botak in my life so i dont know how the fuck i'm going to look like botak. hahaha. Confirm look like fuck. Oh well, at least I'll know one guy in Civil Defence who's enlisting on the same day and that person is Zul! What are the odds bro? If we all platoon mates, power pack lah. hahaha. Haven't done any physical prep for my enlistment so i think im going to get my ass whooped in there. Hope i dont come out a smoker or worse, a MAT( yeap that's how its spelt you chinese peeps. It's not spelt MUD) Most of friends have changed after going in so i know i will too. Just hope its for the better.
Oh ya, and i'll have to switch back to my old phone coz i dont want to risk my iPhone getting stolen my some mat( yes i'm talking about you zul). Haha. Thank god CD allows camera phones. lol. The week that i'm enlisting is Good Friday week so i'll only be in camp for 3 days! hahaha.
That's all peeps. This is, i think, going to be my last post before i enlist coz i dont think i'll be able to muster the patience to blog. haha. Hope all you peeps will stay healthy, be happy and achieve what you want in life. Peace out homies.
Lady Gaga- Poker Face
Akon-Beautiful
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Attraction
So, havent been updating as regularly as i would have hoped coz of my laziness. haha. Anyways, played soccer at temasek poly in the morning with hirman and a couple of my other friends. Felt good to sweat it out but it was also freaking hot! haha. Have been playing soccer quite regularly this past few weeks coz i have the free time on my hands. lol. Anyone who wants to play can always contact me. Im free most, if not all, of the time.
Went to the skin centre last thursday with my dad. He said that my acne problem is getting worse so he decided to take action. The medicine, creams and facial wash cost 70 bucks while the not-even-10-minutes consultation cost 80 bucks. Steep prices man. Hope my complexion gets better in the long run. hahaha. Oh yea, finally got myself a job. Working at the airport again from March 16th to April 1st. Finally got something to occupy my remaining days. lol.
Had dinner with faiz and poon just now at 201 area. Faiz was really damn bored that he asked us out. lol. It was really good to catch up and update each other on our lives. Faiz has a new girlfriend now. Good for you bro and best of luck =) I realised that my friends play a huge role in my life and without them, i would be in pretty bad shape. Im really glad that i have good friends who are there for me no matter what. Comforting to know that there's a safety net to catch me if i fall. Thanks guys. For everything.
Love. Everyone spends their life searching for their other half, their soul-mate, the one. They have certain pre-conceived notions of who that person is going to be. What most people do not realise is that love throws all these pre-conceived notions out the window. As David DeAngelo aptly puts it: Attraction is not a choice. You dont have a say in the matter. It's the unexplainable sense of gravitation towards an individual, a star. Though orbiting around that star can leave you bruised and battered at times, you are still drawn to it. I believe that though love can be painful and brutal at times, it is the one thing worth fighting for in life.
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
Went to the skin centre last thursday with my dad. He said that my acne problem is getting worse so he decided to take action. The medicine, creams and facial wash cost 70 bucks while the not-even-10-minutes consultation cost 80 bucks. Steep prices man. Hope my complexion gets better in the long run. hahaha. Oh yea, finally got myself a job. Working at the airport again from March 16th to April 1st. Finally got something to occupy my remaining days. lol.
Had dinner with faiz and poon just now at 201 area. Faiz was really damn bored that he asked us out. lol. It was really good to catch up and update each other on our lives. Faiz has a new girlfriend now. Good for you bro and best of luck =) I realised that my friends play a huge role in my life and without them, i would be in pretty bad shape. Im really glad that i have good friends who are there for me no matter what. Comforting to know that there's a safety net to catch me if i fall. Thanks guys. For everything.
Love. Everyone spends their life searching for their other half, their soul-mate, the one. They have certain pre-conceived notions of who that person is going to be. What most people do not realise is that love throws all these pre-conceived notions out the window. As David DeAngelo aptly puts it: Attraction is not a choice. You dont have a say in the matter. It's the unexplainable sense of gravitation towards an individual, a star. Though orbiting around that star can leave you bruised and battered at times, you are still drawn to it. I believe that though love can be painful and brutal at times, it is the one thing worth fighting for in life.
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
Friday, February 20, 2009
The way i love you...
I'm blogging while waiting for my shows to load. lol. Just needed something to occupy myself while waiting and blogging seems like an immediate go-to. Anways, been watching some new shows lately coz my favourite shows are on a hiatus! Smallville, One tree hill, Gossip Girl are all on a break. And no, GG isn't a chick flick. So while waiting for their return in March, i started watching The Big Bang Theory and How I Met Your Mother. They're both freaking funny and awesome! All you peeps who haven't tuned in to these shows should do so immediately! They've been the reason why i stay awake till the wee hours of the night. lol. But seriously, go watch them.
Still having writer's block. Really frustrating. Wonder what will inspire me and break the dam which is suppressing my creativity.
Tamia-The way i Love you [ introduced by zul. Thanks bro =D ]
Your voice never fails to give me solace
Your laugh never fails to put a smile on my face
Your tears never fail to cause mine to surface
Your prescence is what holds me together
The thought of you not being in my life?
Utterly imaginable
As destiny would have it
The thought will soon become a reality
Life brings each of us down different paths
For some reason or another
Ours happened to cross
Fate? maybe
Though the time for our paths to diverge
Is drawing near
I'll still love you
Always and Forever
Still having writer's block. Really frustrating. Wonder what will inspire me and break the dam which is suppressing my creativity.
Tamia-The way i Love you [ introduced by zul. Thanks bro =D ]
Your voice never fails to give me solace
Your laugh never fails to put a smile on my face
Your tears never fail to cause mine to surface
Your prescence is what holds me together
The thought of you not being in my life?
Utterly imaginable
As destiny would have it
The thought will soon become a reality
Life brings each of us down different paths
For some reason or another
Ours happened to cross
Fate? maybe
Though the time for our paths to diverge
Is drawing near
I'll still love you
Always and Forever
Thursday, February 19, 2009
MAD
Haven't been blogging for the past couple of days so i thought i'd just update tonight. Soo, i took meifong's brother out today coz she was busy working and couldn't afford to entertain him. Went to watch Valkyrie. Its a really good! It revolves around a plot to assasinate Hitler. Tom Cruise did a brilliant job in this movie too. Definitely recommend all you history and war buffs to go catch it =)
Watched American Idol just now and wow, this season is really the best so far. My favs so far are Anoop "Dog" Desai and Dani Goki. Both of them truly amazing singers and i foresee them going a long way in the competition.
On a more depressing note, i lost my inspiration! I just can't think of stories to write about at the moment and its really frustrating coz i know that i have it in me but i just cant seem to get it out! Anyone know the cure for writer's block?
Mad- Ne-Yo
If my life were a painting, you'd be the brilliant colours which made it beautiful
Watched American Idol just now and wow, this season is really the best so far. My favs so far are Anoop "Dog" Desai and Dani Goki. Both of them truly amazing singers and i foresee them going a long way in the competition.
On a more depressing note, i lost my inspiration! I just can't think of stories to write about at the moment and its really frustrating coz i know that i have it in me but i just cant seem to get it out! Anyone know the cure for writer's block?
Mad- Ne-Yo
If my life were a painting, you'd be the brilliant colours which made it beautiful
Friday, February 13, 2009
-Empty-
Emptiness,nothingness,void. Different words but with similar meanings. I guess these are the best words to describe my life at the moment. I dont know what im doing with my life. For the past few weeks, i feel like i've no purpose in life. Everyday i wake up, and i feel nothing,empty,hollow. Its just that my days have no purpose anymore. This is why im desperately trying to rediscover and infuse meaning into my days,my life. Tried looking for jobs as employment would give my life some sort of structure , but still to no avail. Just my luck i guess. Most of my friends are already serving ns, and the remaining friends that i do have, have their own schedules and plans. Guess i can't utilise hanging out with friends to fill up my days. Figures.
Most of all, i feel insignificant. Like my existence has no impact on the life of others. I know it sounds damn emo but that's a pretty apt description of my life at the moment. My self esteem took a huge hit and i'm constantly doubting my self worth. Guess im just not good enough. Fucked up. That's another good phrase to concisely describe me right now. Enough of my emo shit. Sorry for this guys. Just using blogging as an outlet to pour out my thoughts and feelings. I'm okay. Isn't that what you say when someone close to you has died and people come up to you and deliver their condolences?
Most of all, i feel insignificant. Like my existence has no impact on the life of others. I know it sounds damn emo but that's a pretty apt description of my life at the moment. My self esteem took a huge hit and i'm constantly doubting my self worth. Guess im just not good enough. Fucked up. That's another good phrase to concisely describe me right now. Enough of my emo shit. Sorry for this guys. Just using blogging as an outlet to pour out my thoughts and feelings. I'm okay. Isn't that what you say when someone close to you has died and people come up to you and deliver their condolences?
Thursday, February 5, 2009
The Comet
"Is that it? Is that it?" questioned the child excitedly. "No my dear, that's just a star" answered the father patiently. A few feet away, a man looked at the family and smiled to himself. The family was just one of the many who had gathered at the lake that night to witness the arrival of Halie's Comet, an occurrence once every few millennia. The man was alone, a solitary figure amongst the crowd., The velvety darkness of the sky was riddled with the sprinkling of stars. A good night for comet-gazing, the man thought. Leaning against a massive oak, he gazed silently at the sky and waited.
It was a few hours later when the child earlier, exclaimed excitedly once again, "Oh my god, daddy look! It's HUGE!" A wave of excitement and anticipation swept across the gathered crowd, as several other people started pointing and squealing. Everyone...except the man. He stood stolidly and stared. He could not take his eyes of the comet. It was massive, yet elegant. Beautiful, yet deadly. Its brilliance lit up the night sky, forcing the stars to cower behind it. The man paid no attention to the stars whatsoever. He had never seen anything so beautiful. He felt as if his whole life had led up to this moment, as if this was his destiny, his purpose. All of it had been for this. The arrival of this miracle. With elegant grace and powerful assurance, the comet danced its way across the sky. Then, it was gone. Just like that. As suddenly as it appeared, its disappearance was just as swift.
The man continued to stare into the heavens. The world seemed much darker without the brilliance of the comet, of the angel. His purpose, his destiny, had disappeared. What was the point of everything now? Everything seemed gloomier. The world seemed an inescapable abyss. Darkness surrounded him yet again, embracing him into its cold arms. It hurt, this aching feeling inside him. It hurt. He felt like a blind man, groping desperately for his crutch, his comet, his angel. The stars twinkled softly, quietly offering their help to illuminate this abyss in which he had fallen into, but he did not register them. His eyes were only searching for the brilliance which had lighted up his life but it was gone. Never coming back. He struggled hard to wrap his head around the fact that life had to go on, that life had more meaning than a comet, but to no avail. He knew, deep down to the very core of his soul, that that comet, that angel, was what he had lived the past few decades for. Now it was gone.
That thought kept reverberating in his mind, as if his subconscious was telling him to accept the fact and move on. How could he? He knew that nothing could compare to its sheer brilliance. He collapsed onto the ground, the moist grass caressing his face as he laid his head down onto the soft underbelly of this abyss, of this darkness. "Halie..." he thought, weeping silently into the earth. Halie...
It was a few hours later when the child earlier, exclaimed excitedly once again, "Oh my god, daddy look! It's HUGE!" A wave of excitement and anticipation swept across the gathered crowd, as several other people started pointing and squealing. Everyone...except the man. He stood stolidly and stared. He could not take his eyes of the comet. It was massive, yet elegant. Beautiful, yet deadly. Its brilliance lit up the night sky, forcing the stars to cower behind it. The man paid no attention to the stars whatsoever. He had never seen anything so beautiful. He felt as if his whole life had led up to this moment, as if this was his destiny, his purpose. All of it had been for this. The arrival of this miracle. With elegant grace and powerful assurance, the comet danced its way across the sky. Then, it was gone. Just like that. As suddenly as it appeared, its disappearance was just as swift.
The man continued to stare into the heavens. The world seemed much darker without the brilliance of the comet, of the angel. His purpose, his destiny, had disappeared. What was the point of everything now? Everything seemed gloomier. The world seemed an inescapable abyss. Darkness surrounded him yet again, embracing him into its cold arms. It hurt, this aching feeling inside him. It hurt. He felt like a blind man, groping desperately for his crutch, his comet, his angel. The stars twinkled softly, quietly offering their help to illuminate this abyss in which he had fallen into, but he did not register them. His eyes were only searching for the brilliance which had lighted up his life but it was gone. Never coming back. He struggled hard to wrap his head around the fact that life had to go on, that life had more meaning than a comet, but to no avail. He knew, deep down to the very core of his soul, that that comet, that angel, was what he had lived the past few decades for. Now it was gone.
That thought kept reverberating in his mind, as if his subconscious was telling him to accept the fact and move on. How could he? He knew that nothing could compare to its sheer brilliance. He collapsed onto the ground, the moist grass caressing his face as he laid his head down onto the soft underbelly of this abyss, of this darkness. "Halie..." he thought, weeping silently into the earth. Halie...
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Sing for the good times...
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Darkness surrounds me...yet again
Hey peeps! sup sup! tmr im starting on a job! Its a temp job though and only lasts 4 days from the 24th to the 27th. The pay's pretty good. 50/day on the 24th and 25th and 100/day on the 26th and 27th. So im going to get 300 bucks for 4 days work! Woohoo! lol. Anyways, can't wait for the day of the release of the A level results to be announced so that i can adequately prepare myself mentally for the outcome. hahaha. The anticipation alone is killing me. As Steven Seagall once said: the anticipation of death is worse than death itself.
Anyways, was watching Dont forget the lyrics yesterday and the song With or without you was playing! OMG! i've been searching for the title of that song since i heard it being played on one of the episodes of Friends. Such a beautiful song...
With or Without You-U2
Without you in my life baby,
I just wouldn't be living at all
Anyways, was watching Dont forget the lyrics yesterday and the song With or without you was playing! OMG! i've been searching for the title of that song since i heard it being played on one of the episodes of Friends. Such a beautiful song...
With or Without You-U2
Without you in my life baby,
I just wouldn't be living at all
Saturday, January 17, 2009
DanceVolution!
Sup sup! How have you peeps been? hahaha. Was just surfing youtube watching dance videos. Im really amazed at some of the talent that singaporean dancers have! hahaha. For example,
Trademark, an NYP group
Flair Nation,
Revoc
This is only the tip of the iceberg people. I really really hope that all of you out there,who love to dance, do not give up on pursuing your passion guys coz as corny and cliche as this may sound, we are the future. Who knows? Singapore's dance scene may eventually escalate to this...
JABBAWOCKEEZ!!
Live your dreams people. Giving up on one's dream is to give up on one's self.
Peace
Trademark, an NYP group
Flair Nation,
Revoc
This is only the tip of the iceberg people. I really really hope that all of you out there,who love to dance, do not give up on pursuing your passion guys coz as corny and cliche as this may sound, we are the future. Who knows? Singapore's dance scene may eventually escalate to this...
JABBAWOCKEEZ!!
Live your dreams people. Giving up on one's dream is to give up on one's self.
Peace
Friday, January 9, 2009
So so sorry...
I screwed up, once again. I was forced to evaluate myself and i found out that i am indeed a screw-up. As the saying goes: Knowing is half the battle. There's still the matter of trying to redeem any amount of self worth that i may have and i gotta do it fast or else, well, or else i may eventually lose the most important thing in my life.
I'm sorry. Truly am. I know that it's too late to...
Apologise- One republic
But what i really want to...
Say( All i need) - One republic
is you. You are truly my...
Everything-Lifehouse
I love you. Hope i can be a better person in the future.
I'm sorry. Truly am. I know that it's too late to...
Apologise- One republic
But what i really want to...
Say( All i need) - One republic
is you. You are truly my...
Everything-Lifehouse
I love you. Hope i can be a better person in the future.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Happy New Year!
Happy new year to all you peeps!! hahaha. Im back once again after a long hiatus. So lots have happened during this time that i have been away. I'll try to summarise it for you guys =)
18th Dec '08
My baby came back from Japan! hahaha. Was really happy to see her after 8 long long days!
We went to eat at Fish and Co. while she shared with me anecdotes from her stay in Japan. haha. She bought for me some souvenirs from Disneyland as well! Love you dear =)
22-27 Dec '08
I left for Kuala Lumpur with my family for a 6D5N vacation. Yes i know, its freaking long for a vacation in KL. Took a coach there which was a 5 hour journey. Basically we shopped during the whole trip, with visits to Genting and Colmar( some french-themed resort in Bt Tinggi)
Got myself a jacket ,which i've been wanting to buy for quite awhile and also bought a coupla jeans, books and some other stuff. As i said, a shopping trip. Caught Twilight there. The movie prices are really cheap there! 10RM only! Wth! Anyways, the movie was really disappointing for me as they cut out alot of nice scenes and added a coupla scenes which weren't even in the book. Damn, hope the subsequent movies will live up to the hype =/
31st Dec '08
Last day of the year! And i spent it with my baby =) Went to downtown east early to buy tickets to Yes Man. Then, went to toa payoh and took a bus to shermaine's house coz meifong was supposed to watch a movie with Wen Bin and Shermaine but Shermaine screwed up the timing...again. haha. So yeap, slacked at her house for awhile then left with meifong =) back to downtown east to catch Yes Man! Its a really nice show and really funny! Guaranteed to send you into peals of laughter. hahaha. Supposed to head down to the beach after that but meifong had plans with her gals so i accompanied her back to Yishun. So yeap, got to spend a segment of New Year's eve with meifong and that's good enough =)
Tracks featured in Twilight:
Decode-Paramore
Flightless Bird, American Mouth-Iron and Wine
Eyes On Fire-Blue Foundation
I Caught Myself-Paramore
Happy 6th month my dear
You've got nothing to fear
I love you
Always and forever
18th Dec '08
My baby came back from Japan! hahaha. Was really happy to see her after 8 long long days!
We went to eat at Fish and Co. while she shared with me anecdotes from her stay in Japan. haha. She bought for me some souvenirs from Disneyland as well! Love you dear =)
22-27 Dec '08
I left for Kuala Lumpur with my family for a 6D5N vacation. Yes i know, its freaking long for a vacation in KL. Took a coach there which was a 5 hour journey. Basically we shopped during the whole trip, with visits to Genting and Colmar( some french-themed resort in Bt Tinggi)
Got myself a jacket ,which i've been wanting to buy for quite awhile and also bought a coupla jeans, books and some other stuff. As i said, a shopping trip. Caught Twilight there. The movie prices are really cheap there! 10RM only! Wth! Anyways, the movie was really disappointing for me as they cut out alot of nice scenes and added a coupla scenes which weren't even in the book. Damn, hope the subsequent movies will live up to the hype =/
31st Dec '08
Last day of the year! And i spent it with my baby =) Went to downtown east early to buy tickets to Yes Man. Then, went to toa payoh and took a bus to shermaine's house coz meifong was supposed to watch a movie with Wen Bin and Shermaine but Shermaine screwed up the timing...again. haha. So yeap, slacked at her house for awhile then left with meifong =) back to downtown east to catch Yes Man! Its a really nice show and really funny! Guaranteed to send you into peals of laughter. hahaha. Supposed to head down to the beach after that but meifong had plans with her gals so i accompanied her back to Yishun. So yeap, got to spend a segment of New Year's eve with meifong and that's good enough =)
Tracks featured in Twilight:
Decode-Paramore
Flightless Bird, American Mouth-Iron and Wine
Eyes On Fire-Blue Foundation
I Caught Myself-Paramore
Happy 6th month my dear
You've got nothing to fear
I love you
Always and forever
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