Rage Blackouts

Heyo. Sorry bout not posting yesterday guys. Seriously had nothing to talk about so it would be kind of stupid to blog about mundane stuff. Neways, had training today as usual. Surprisingly, it was quite fun and 20 people turned up which is quite a good improvement from the past turnouts for sat trainings which was pretty pathetic. After training, had to serve detention for the first time since i came to yjc coz i came late twice so far this year. When i told my mom that i had detention, she blowed it up into such a freaking big issue as if i like played truant or something. Was seriously pissed off at that time. Neways, detention was supposed to be 3 hours but me and aznor only spent like an hr actually in the classroom. The rest of the time, we were slacking with fai n Ow at the grandstand n talking cock as usual. After detention, slacked with Ow n fai at the grandstand while waiting for candice to come accompany Ow. Albert n co. went out today to have a belated celebration of mel's bday. I couldn't join in coz of parents( as usual) n detention. Neways, reali hope that they had fun today.

Lately, i've been losing my temper more often that i've done in past years. My close friends in the soccer team would know the reason for this. Reali gotta learn to keep a lid on my temper from now on and not get easily agitated. However, I cant make any promises if future events piss me off.When one feels sad or angry occasionally, it's deemed that one is like 'emo' or something. The sad truth is when one constantly feels sad, it becomes the norm and its deemed as being 'ok'. Life. Sometimes its painful, sometimes its beautiful. Most of the times, its abit of both. Im sure many of us desperately search for the silver lining to most bad/painful things that have happened to us to try and be optimistic. Sometimes its there, most of the time it isn't. Most people are hoping to find gold at the end of the rainbow, however most of the time, its juz disappointment yet again. I know im sounding really pessimistic but unfortunately, its the the painful truth. Its up to all of you whether to live in blissful ignorance or to accept the harsh facts of reality.

Having a dream doesn't make you smart. Knowing it won't come true, that does