Wassssssssup! Hope all you guys have been awesome man. haha. Have free time to kill so decided to blog. lol.
Today marks my fourth day as a station medic. The hours are pretty grueling; 13-hour day shift(8am to 9pm) and 11-hour night shift(9pm to 8am). It really is an amazing experience and i finally know how busy the ambulance service is in singapore and how fucked up people can get. It seems that having a headache is considered an emergency these days. Despite this, i still feel that i've learnt alot so far. The feeling derived from saving people is truly one-of-a-kind. The best part is im working 2 days, and the next 2 days im off! woots! Only drawback is some of my weekends are burnt.
Im really glad that this job occupies most of my time. Leaves little time to ponder about my life. hahaha.
Repulsed at the thought of the numbness slowly fading away...
Wait for You- Elliot Yamin
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Betrayal
Friendship. It's one of the most important aspects of life. Having a group of people who understand you, are there for you and love you for who you are. The beauty of friendship is that it is a symbiotic relationship whereby two parties depend on each other for encouragement, understanding and unwavering loyalty. My friends mean the world to me. They are the most important people in my life, besides my family of coz. I've friends who i've known since secondary school and who i'm still close to up to this day.
I have a very great distinction between right and wrong and one of my strongest beliefs is that i would never go against my extremely good friends' wishes if i had a choice. Its amazing how people can change. You think you've known them for the most part of your life and you've got them figured out, and then, they turn around and do something you'd never have expected them to be capable of. Pretending to be there for you when in actual fact, they're just waiting for you to give up. Best friend indeed. Fuck you.
It's people like this that make me doubt the goodness in people. Made me realise that you can never truly know someone till they've shown you their true colours. But as my good friend Charles once told me, "Have faith Fazil".
Have faith.
Fuck this life
I have a very great distinction between right and wrong and one of my strongest beliefs is that i would never go against my extremely good friends' wishes if i had a choice. Its amazing how people can change. You think you've known them for the most part of your life and you've got them figured out, and then, they turn around and do something you'd never have expected them to be capable of. Pretending to be there for you when in actual fact, they're just waiting for you to give up. Best friend indeed. Fuck you.
It's people like this that make me doubt the goodness in people. Made me realise that you can never truly know someone till they've shown you their true colours. But as my good friend Charles once told me, "Have faith Fazil".
Have faith.
Fuck this life
Thursday, June 25, 2009
Change is coming
Change. It's an inevitable aspect of life. Sometimes its for the better, and at times, its for the worse. The past month has been wrought with change for me. New phase of my NS life and also, a new phase of my life. It was depressing for the past few weeks till yesterday. Had a good chat and i guess i realized that as much as you want to be in someone else's life, it's up to the person to let you in. You can bang on the door as much as you want but it's still up to the person, whether to let you through. I'll be waiting outside that door, waiting for it to open again. But, in the meantime, i'll be going about my own life, taking an occasional peek through the window. One thing i learnt: sometimes, people do the most hurtful things to the ones they love, not coz they want to, but because they have to.
Linkin Park-New Divide
Lyrics | Linkin Park lyrics - New Divide lyrics
Linkin Park-New Divide
Lyrics | Linkin Park lyrics - New Divide lyrics
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Dear God,
Lyrics | Avenged Sevenfold lyrics - Dear God lyrics
Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Surfacing
Amacam! haha. Freaking long time man! haha. Been really damn lazy to blog since i enlisted coz i dont really have much to blog about besides ns life and im sure you guys aren't interested in that shit. Oh well, since i've mustered the will to blog, here goes.
As you all know, i got posted to CD and i went through the 7 weeks of Basic Rescue Training( BRT, not BMT). Struggled at first coz i didnt really train physically for my enlistment. haha. But as the weeks rolled by, i could see that i became fitter and i could cope with the hundreds of pumping the fucking instructors made us do everyday. haha. So then i POP-ed( without an actual parade. CD damn fucking budget. ) and got posted to MEDIC. Kind of expected that coz im from JC. So yeap, i', going through the 6-week course now. Finally gotten over my fear of needles coz we get injected every friday and also coz we had to do IV on each other. Got to feel how warm blood is when it flowed all over my arm. haha. 3 weeks to go then i'll be posted to fire station, hopefully one near my house, and attached to ambulance. that means i'll be attending to road traffic accidents, suicide cases and all that shit. Gonna be pretty traumatising. Lol.
The best part about being a medic is that im on office hours throughout the duration of the course! the downside is that i have to report at 730am each day so that means i have to wake up at like 5 everyday. haha. However, once i get posted out, i'll be working two days, then two days off, and so on and so forth. Good life.
On the university aspect, i got accepted into NUS. What a relief. But i'm gonna try applying for schaolarships next year coz i really wanna go overseas. Get some perspective and of coz, have a ball of a time overseas. haha. If i dont get it, i'll still have NUS to fall back on. Cross your fingers aite? lol.
That's it for now guys. Take care of yourselves. Love you all. Peace.
Lifehouse-Blind
Lyrics | Lifehouse lyrics - Blind lyrics
As you all know, i got posted to CD and i went through the 7 weeks of Basic Rescue Training( BRT, not BMT). Struggled at first coz i didnt really train physically for my enlistment. haha. But as the weeks rolled by, i could see that i became fitter and i could cope with the hundreds of pumping the fucking instructors made us do everyday. haha. So then i POP-ed( without an actual parade. CD damn fucking budget. ) and got posted to MEDIC. Kind of expected that coz im from JC. So yeap, i', going through the 6-week course now. Finally gotten over my fear of needles coz we get injected every friday and also coz we had to do IV on each other. Got to feel how warm blood is when it flowed all over my arm. haha. 3 weeks to go then i'll be posted to fire station, hopefully one near my house, and attached to ambulance. that means i'll be attending to road traffic accidents, suicide cases and all that shit. Gonna be pretty traumatising. Lol.
The best part about being a medic is that im on office hours throughout the duration of the course! the downside is that i have to report at 730am each day so that means i have to wake up at like 5 everyday. haha. However, once i get posted out, i'll be working two days, then two days off, and so on and so forth. Good life.
On the university aspect, i got accepted into NUS. What a relief. But i'm gonna try applying for schaolarships next year coz i really wanna go overseas. Get some perspective and of coz, have a ball of a time overseas. haha. If i dont get it, i'll still have NUS to fall back on. Cross your fingers aite? lol.
That's it for now guys. Take care of yourselves. Love you all. Peace.
Lifehouse-Blind
Lyrics | Lifehouse lyrics - Blind lyrics
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Beautiful
Wassup to all you peeps out there!! Been a fucking long time man! hahahaha. Oh well, the hiatus was largely due to my own laziness. Yea so updates! =)
A level Results
Was fucking shocked when i got called in the morning. Last thing i expected. Still dont know how the fuck i did it. Anyways, hope all you peeps get into the universities and courses that you want! =)
Work
Yeap, i finally managed to find a job working at the airport as i have mentioned before. This time in charge of a game booth where passengers stand a chance to win cash vouchers. It was really interesting coz i got to meet loads of people and of coz, hot chicks! ( of different nationalities *wink*) Also had the opportunity to work the midnight shift which starts from 11pm to 730am. Wtf? yeap, tell me about it. haha. Faiz and Zul came to accompany me on one of those shifts. I suggested it jokingly to them but didnt really think that they'd actually come. haha. Great friends man. Oh ya, meifong, chuan yue and charles also came to the airport on one of my midnight shifts. They had just finished clubbing so they were pretty exhausted. hahahaha. Anyways, my last day of work was last tue so i'm officially unemployed again. Still waiting to collect my pay of 600 bucks for 12 days work. Quite good actually. hahaha.
Chill-ing
Have been playing soccer regularly for the past few months and it was really damn fun lah. hahaha. The problem is i dont seem to be getting any slimmer, worse, im actually getting fatter! i'm sure several people can vouch for this. hahahaha. Caught several movies too. Watched Push with meifong, The Watchmen with zul and poon and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with meifong and reza. Watchmen was freaking draggy and we watched the 930pm show so it ended at like 12 plus. The only scenes that i liked were of Rorshach( that's how it's spelt i think) who's freaking cool lah. hahahaha.
Spent many afternoons over at Zul's house playing Fifa and Guitar Hero World Tour. haha. Awesomeness.
Shows to Watch
For all of you people who have not watched How I Met Your Mother, crawl out from under your fucking rocks and go watch it! Its reallly funny and i haven't laughed this hard consistently since i started watching Friends. So for all you peeps who loved Friends, catch How I Met Your mother. Just go to Sidereel.com and watch to your heart's content. It is going to be legend... wait for it... DARRYYY!
DoomsDay
Yes, the day is drawing ever closer. I'm going to fucking enlist this fucking TUESDAY. I have never, and i mean never, cut botak in my life so i dont know how the fuck i'm going to look like botak. hahaha. Confirm look like fuck. Oh well, at least I'll know one guy in Civil Defence who's enlisting on the same day and that person is Zul! What are the odds bro? If we all platoon mates, power pack lah. hahaha. Haven't done any physical prep for my enlistment so i think im going to get my ass whooped in there. Hope i dont come out a smoker or worse, a MAT( yeap that's how its spelt you chinese peeps. It's not spelt MUD) Most of friends have changed after going in so i know i will too. Just hope its for the better.
Oh ya, and i'll have to switch back to my old phone coz i dont want to risk my iPhone getting stolen my some mat( yes i'm talking about you zul). Haha. Thank god CD allows camera phones. lol. The week that i'm enlisting is Good Friday week so i'll only be in camp for 3 days! hahaha.
That's all peeps. This is, i think, going to be my last post before i enlist coz i dont think i'll be able to muster the patience to blog. haha. Hope all you peeps will stay healthy, be happy and achieve what you want in life. Peace out homies.
Lady Gaga- Poker Face
Akon-Beautiful
A level Results
Was fucking shocked when i got called in the morning. Last thing i expected. Still dont know how the fuck i did it. Anyways, hope all you peeps get into the universities and courses that you want! =)
Work
Yeap, i finally managed to find a job working at the airport as i have mentioned before. This time in charge of a game booth where passengers stand a chance to win cash vouchers. It was really interesting coz i got to meet loads of people and of coz, hot chicks! ( of different nationalities *wink*) Also had the opportunity to work the midnight shift which starts from 11pm to 730am. Wtf? yeap, tell me about it. haha. Faiz and Zul came to accompany me on one of those shifts. I suggested it jokingly to them but didnt really think that they'd actually come. haha. Great friends man. Oh ya, meifong, chuan yue and charles also came to the airport on one of my midnight shifts. They had just finished clubbing so they were pretty exhausted. hahahaha. Anyways, my last day of work was last tue so i'm officially unemployed again. Still waiting to collect my pay of 600 bucks for 12 days work. Quite good actually. hahaha.
Chill-ing
Have been playing soccer regularly for the past few months and it was really damn fun lah. hahaha. The problem is i dont seem to be getting any slimmer, worse, im actually getting fatter! i'm sure several people can vouch for this. hahahaha. Caught several movies too. Watched Push with meifong, The Watchmen with zul and poon and The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with meifong and reza. Watchmen was freaking draggy and we watched the 930pm show so it ended at like 12 plus. The only scenes that i liked were of Rorshach( that's how it's spelt i think) who's freaking cool lah. hahahaha.
Spent many afternoons over at Zul's house playing Fifa and Guitar Hero World Tour. haha. Awesomeness.
Shows to Watch
For all of you people who have not watched How I Met Your Mother, crawl out from under your fucking rocks and go watch it! Its reallly funny and i haven't laughed this hard consistently since i started watching Friends. So for all you peeps who loved Friends, catch How I Met Your mother. Just go to Sidereel.com and watch to your heart's content. It is going to be legend... wait for it... DARRYYY!
DoomsDay
Yes, the day is drawing ever closer. I'm going to fucking enlist this fucking TUESDAY. I have never, and i mean never, cut botak in my life so i dont know how the fuck i'm going to look like botak. hahaha. Confirm look like fuck. Oh well, at least I'll know one guy in Civil Defence who's enlisting on the same day and that person is Zul! What are the odds bro? If we all platoon mates, power pack lah. hahaha. Haven't done any physical prep for my enlistment so i think im going to get my ass whooped in there. Hope i dont come out a smoker or worse, a MAT( yeap that's how its spelt you chinese peeps. It's not spelt MUD) Most of friends have changed after going in so i know i will too. Just hope its for the better.
Oh ya, and i'll have to switch back to my old phone coz i dont want to risk my iPhone getting stolen my some mat( yes i'm talking about you zul). Haha. Thank god CD allows camera phones. lol. The week that i'm enlisting is Good Friday week so i'll only be in camp for 3 days! hahaha.
That's all peeps. This is, i think, going to be my last post before i enlist coz i dont think i'll be able to muster the patience to blog. haha. Hope all you peeps will stay healthy, be happy and achieve what you want in life. Peace out homies.
Lady Gaga- Poker Face
Akon-Beautiful
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Attraction
So, havent been updating as regularly as i would have hoped coz of my laziness. haha. Anyways, played soccer at temasek poly in the morning with hirman and a couple of my other friends. Felt good to sweat it out but it was also freaking hot! haha. Have been playing soccer quite regularly this past few weeks coz i have the free time on my hands. lol. Anyone who wants to play can always contact me. Im free most, if not all, of the time.
Went to the skin centre last thursday with my dad. He said that my acne problem is getting worse so he decided to take action. The medicine, creams and facial wash cost 70 bucks while the not-even-10-minutes consultation cost 80 bucks. Steep prices man. Hope my complexion gets better in the long run. hahaha. Oh yea, finally got myself a job. Working at the airport again from March 16th to April 1st. Finally got something to occupy my remaining days. lol.
Had dinner with faiz and poon just now at 201 area. Faiz was really damn bored that he asked us out. lol. It was really good to catch up and update each other on our lives. Faiz has a new girlfriend now. Good for you bro and best of luck =) I realised that my friends play a huge role in my life and without them, i would be in pretty bad shape. Im really glad that i have good friends who are there for me no matter what. Comforting to know that there's a safety net to catch me if i fall. Thanks guys. For everything.
Love. Everyone spends their life searching for their other half, their soul-mate, the one. They have certain pre-conceived notions of who that person is going to be. What most people do not realise is that love throws all these pre-conceived notions out the window. As David DeAngelo aptly puts it: Attraction is not a choice. You dont have a say in the matter. It's the unexplainable sense of gravitation towards an individual, a star. Though orbiting around that star can leave you bruised and battered at times, you are still drawn to it. I believe that though love can be painful and brutal at times, it is the one thing worth fighting for in life.
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
Went to the skin centre last thursday with my dad. He said that my acne problem is getting worse so he decided to take action. The medicine, creams and facial wash cost 70 bucks while the not-even-10-minutes consultation cost 80 bucks. Steep prices man. Hope my complexion gets better in the long run. hahaha. Oh yea, finally got myself a job. Working at the airport again from March 16th to April 1st. Finally got something to occupy my remaining days. lol.
Had dinner with faiz and poon just now at 201 area. Faiz was really damn bored that he asked us out. lol. It was really good to catch up and update each other on our lives. Faiz has a new girlfriend now. Good for you bro and best of luck =) I realised that my friends play a huge role in my life and without them, i would be in pretty bad shape. Im really glad that i have good friends who are there for me no matter what. Comforting to know that there's a safety net to catch me if i fall. Thanks guys. For everything.
Love. Everyone spends their life searching for their other half, their soul-mate, the one. They have certain pre-conceived notions of who that person is going to be. What most people do not realise is that love throws all these pre-conceived notions out the window. As David DeAngelo aptly puts it: Attraction is not a choice. You dont have a say in the matter. It's the unexplainable sense of gravitation towards an individual, a star. Though orbiting around that star can leave you bruised and battered at times, you are still drawn to it. I believe that though love can be painful and brutal at times, it is the one thing worth fighting for in life.
"Staring right back in the face
A memory can't be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
And everything I'm gonna miss
I know, that I can't hide
All this time is passing by
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
Start to breathe and fake a smile
It's all the same after a while
I know, that you are tired
Carrying the ones you lost
A picture frame with all the thoughts
I know, you hold inside
I hope that you can find your way back
To the place where you belong
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
You're coming back down
You say you feel lost can I help you find it
When you come around
From time to time we all are blinded
You're coming back down
You don't have to tell me what you're feeling
I know what you're going through
I won't be the one that lets go of you
I think it's time to just move on
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through
When you come back down
If you land on your feet
I hope you find a way to make it back to me
When you come around
I'll be there for you
Don't have to be alone with what you're going through"
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