Betrayal

Friendship. It's one of the most important aspects of life. Having a group of people who understand you, are there for you and love you for who you are. The beauty of friendship is that it is a symbiotic relationship whereby two parties depend on each other for encouragement, understanding and unwavering loyalty. My friends mean the world to me. They are the most important people in my life, besides my family of coz. I've friends who i've known since secondary school and who i'm still close to up to this day.

I have a very great distinction between right and wrong and one of my strongest beliefs is that i would never go against my extremely good friends' wishes if i had a choice. Its amazing how people can change. You think you've known them for the most part of your life and you've got them figured out, and then, they turn around and do something you'd never have expected them to be capable of. Pretending to be there for you when in actual fact, they're just waiting for you to give up. Best friend indeed. Fuck you.

It's people like this that make me doubt the goodness in people. Made me realise that you can never truly know someone till they've shown you their true colours. But as my good friend Charles once told me, "Have faith Fazil".

Have faith.

Fuck this life

Change is coming

Change. It's an inevitable aspect of life. Sometimes its for the better, and at times, its for the worse. The past month has been wrought with change for me. New phase of my NS life and also, a new phase of my life. It was depressing for the past few weeks till yesterday. Had a good chat and i guess i realized that as much as you want to be in someone else's life, it's up to the person to let you in. You can bang on the door as much as you want but it's still up to the person, whether to let you through. I'll be waiting outside that door, waiting for it to open again. But, in the meantime, i'll be going about my own life, taking an occasional peek through the window. One thing i learnt: sometimes, people do the most hurtful things to the ones they love, not coz they want to, but because they have to.

Linkin Park-New Divide


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Dear God,

Lyrics | Avenged Sevenfold lyrics - Dear God lyrics

Dear God, the only thing I ask of you
Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away

Surfacing

Amacam! haha. Freaking long time man! haha. Been really damn lazy to blog since i enlisted coz i dont really have much to blog about besides ns life and im sure you guys aren't interested in that shit. Oh well, since i've mustered the will to blog, here goes.

As you all know, i got posted to CD and i went through the 7 weeks of Basic Rescue Training( BRT, not BMT). Struggled at first coz i didnt really train physically for my enlistment. haha. But as the weeks rolled by, i could see that i became fitter and i could cope with the hundreds of pumping the fucking instructors made us do everyday. haha. So then i POP-ed( without an actual parade. CD damn fucking budget. ) and got posted to MEDIC. Kind of expected that coz im from JC. So yeap, i', going through the 6-week course now. Finally gotten over my fear of needles coz we get injected every friday and also coz we had to do IV on each other. Got to feel how warm blood is when it flowed all over my arm. haha. 3 weeks to go then i'll be posted to fire station, hopefully one near my house, and attached to ambulance. that means i'll be attending to road traffic accidents, suicide cases and all that shit. Gonna be pretty traumatising. Lol.

The best part about being a medic is that im on office hours throughout the duration of the course! the downside is that i have to report at 730am each day so that means i have to wake up at like 5 everyday. haha. However, once i get posted out, i'll be working two days, then two days off, and so on and so forth. Good life.

On the university aspect, i got accepted into NUS. What a relief. But i'm gonna try applying for schaolarships next year coz i really wanna go overseas. Get some perspective and of coz, have a ball of a time overseas. haha. If i dont get it, i'll still have NUS to fall back on. Cross your fingers aite? lol.

That's it for now guys. Take care of yourselves. Love you all. Peace.

Lifehouse-Blind



Lyrics | Lifehouse lyrics - Blind lyrics